I wanna make you smile 
Whenever you're sad 
Carry you around when you're getting old.
All i wanna do, is grow old with you 

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches 
give you a rub when your ankles strains
So, it could be so nice growing old with you,

I'll miss you 
Kiss you 
Give you my warm hug when you are cold 
Need you 
Feed you 
Even let you call me fat all dayyyyyy

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink 
Put you to bed when you've nagging at me.
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you 
I wanna grow old with you.

 

 when you know someone who you will be able to grow old with, what do you do,do whatever it takes? i think having to be in that transition is beautiful. on the upside, the person who i want to grow old with loves to call me fat. (:

what are the differences between wants and needs? sometimes what you want is what you need ain't it? but to what extend are you actually willing to pursue it. i do have a want which i really think it's turning into a need. i want to know you like the back of my hand and i certainly hope so you do as well. (:

 

i thinks it to be a tragically ironic travesty that while others do not live our lives, our lives are, more often than not, not always about us. Even it kills, i will want to cheat to win.

 Have you ever just stood wherever you are just felt and thought to yourself ; where have gone the days, where you can just do what you love everyday? i think it's more about trying to remember those moments where you felt so good and you never wanted to let go. the joy, the passion, the remarkable sense like you're on top of the world just being able to do it everyday. i cherish those times and it can never be replaced with anything, the bonds you make, the struggles and failures you go through just makes it all the better. have i found something like that yet the past 2 years? i don't think so. i've yet to felt that joy. i hope it does, never mind the failures, it was just that damn good.  on another note, i wish to be brave enough to find it soon, and actually make sure what i have believed actually are through and not just a figment of my imagination thinking it does exist. if only it was easier done than said. 

The stars must be aligned tonight
I believe this has to have a meaning
Lightning had to strike tonight
Cause the two of us are finally meeting
In this place, at this time
And I feel safe when I look in your eyes
I feel like I know you from another life
And it makes me wish I wasn't so pressed by time. 

 You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no?

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it.

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it

 sometimes maximum effort just doesn't cut it, does it? that i've yet to feel and taste first hand. being in a amazement that i am in now, wondering the next move can be something hazardous especially if you think you are doing it right but it actually doesn't so all is left are goodbyes and then you can just immerse yourself in the amazing feeling of yet another epic failure. and yes, one good thing i've learnt today, just because you feel it, doesn't mean it's there. trust me how fucking true that was.

 I know you know we're had some good times
How they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drink, I'll be the wine.

life as you may have it likes to twist and turn like a hungry snake craving for a prey. it looks simple but the fact that when it doesn't go our way, we sigh, we cry and we simply lose hope. for one, it will never go our way most of the time but how you perceive that problem and forget those sad memories and actually substitute it to something happy makes it work sometimes. i know i can't feel how you feel cause' ive haven't lost someone i truly love and adore yet. god willing i won't have to in the near future. but, you always know, i am your pillar of strength, i am your number 1 fan. you know i will cheer you on no matter what and you can count on that. wipe the tears of your cheeks and lets look to the future with a smile on your face. grit your teeth and push on. i love you. 

i don't like the feeling of not being able to change something which could have been better. 

sometimes, you just dont have to do things like the way it's suppose to be.
improvise.kill it. finish it.
you will see the light soon enough.

 The meaning of life is contained in every single expression of life. It is present in the infinity of forms and phenomena that exist in all of creation.

- Michael Jackson

 

cause' i know you'll be there when i hold your hands :D

This is the start of something new,
it feels so right, to be here with you.
and now, looking in your eyes.
i feel in my heart, the start of something new :D

I'm a new soul,
I came to this strange world,
Hoping that i could abit bout' how to give and take.
But since i came here, felt the joy and the fear.
Finding myself making every possible mistake.

 Sometimes, it's better to live in your own world.
The world which you think is for only people like you.
So only people who are alike can be of your pleasure.  
Stop, think, observe. people have difficulties you will never understand.
Unhappy? fuck off. just fuck off. and no bad mouthing left behind.